Those of you who have been following me since 2003 know that I’d taken a 3 or 4 (I can’t even remember anymore) year break from blogging. It took me that long to recover. After gaining my sight I lost everything. My money, my possessions, my marriage, my family, and even what I thought would be my business was gone. My entire life was erased in a short period of time.
Thank you to those of you who helped furnish my apartment when all I owned was measuring cups and an avocado slicer.
Thank you to those of you who sent me messages to check in on me.
Thank you to those of you who believed I could work my way out of what was many times over what could have killed me.
Thank you to those of you who checked in on my during the holidays, knowing that those times are particularly hard for me.
Do you realize how f*cking humiliating it is to work that hard, lose everything, and have to ask for help?
My battery wouldn’t charge anymore. Most days I couldn’t get out of bed. Thankfully back then I worked from home – thank GOD because I was able to get my job done and hide that I was suffering as badly as I was. I rented a room in Los Angeles and ate shit for a year to try and build up some sort of financial stability and to heal from the abject horror that was what I experienced.
I have decent coping mechanisms, but had nobody with me to help. So I have to say thank you to those of you who read my work and enjoyed my work because with your help I was able to get my own apartment, get it set up, get a job, and stabilize my mental and physical health to the point that I feel like I can offer something of value to you again. I now have a job that I love and I am hopeful about the future. One thing I am very good at is enjoying life when there’s nothing happy about it.
I literally learned wordpress and put this entire thing together by myself.
Next step is that I’ll be writing my memoir and opening my Patreon again to help me buy time to do that. More on that later.
I may not own a lot of furniture, but I have my own apartment and I love it. :)Do I feel happy every day? No. But I can write again. I hope that my writings here amuse you and help you feel like someone is there for you. I was trying to overthink some sort of theme to this blog, but I just can’t yet other than “Living the good life when life isn’t.”
I’m good at that. And so I am back and here for you all.
Because you all were there for me when I needed it.
And yes, you can still call me “Oni”.